This past week a dream came true of mine, one I’ve been wanting to come true for quite a long time. I became a Jungle Cruise Skipper.
It’s so odd to think that the attraction I will be working at was one of your favorites and one you put a lot of heart into. Of course the actual model of a skipper has come a long way, from being only an informative male to becoming a witty and entertaining guide of any gender. I’m so lucky to be a part of it!
Disneyland has been very good to me. It’s my safe haven. It’s my truest home. Everyday I’m thankful to have a place like this in my life, a place YOU created. I would hope if you rode on my boat that’d you’d have a good time and think I was hilarious. I try to model myself after you Walt. Sometimes people understand, sometimes people don’t get it. I’m just glad in my head it all makes sense because most of the time it’s the only thing that does.
I’m sorry. I’m so very very sorry for my absence. I’ve turned to God the past few months as much as I could because you did what you could do for me. You have so many daydream believers to watch over and guide. But here I am approximately six months later. I’m mostly on my feet and still a bit shaky from the last fall. When I last wrote to you I was disappointed in a cast member and I made it better. I fought for my place because I only I know what I am capable of, not a woman who is knows nothing about me.
And I got it, I may not be a Jungle Cruise skipper but I’m making my way there. I’m currently working at Indiana Jones, a place I thought I could never get used to. I underestimate myself Walt, and I think that’s where I go terribly wrong. Those evil voices get inside my head and I noticed it was taking my PA back in October. But seeing those guests smile, and working with some real great people have turned it all around. The good truly outweighs the bad. You always wanted the world to know that because it was in your films, your Mickey, your land, your life.
I can say I’m truly blessed because not long before that, I had to leave Buena Vista Street, my truest home and the place where I felt I was born. Stores will always hold a very special place in my heart. On my one year anniversary I just so happened to not work, but that night I met the most incredible boy. Walt, his name is Jonathan and I’m sure you see the way he has made me. All my friends left after summer and I swore I was going to be storming the trenches of my life alone, but then he showed up. Things are brighter with him around. He is absolutely perfect in every way I can’t stand it. He’s such a goof and I can be my complete self with him. It’s a miracle. He’s a miracle.
Walt, Jon has me thinking of the future more than I did before. I find myself terrified because unlike you I feel I have no natural gift. I struggle every day with what I want to pursue. I have so many dreams, my heart is in so many places. It’s the problem of my entire life because my entire life relies on this one decision. I just don’t know… I live day by day but I know eventually that won’t cut it. I just ask that maybe you send a little birdie down to whisper some inspiration into my ears. Lord knows I need it.
I go in circles Walt. I’m getting quite dizzy.